Appearances and Choices

Ah Mondays...the perfect day for procrastination. I appear to have a motivational dysfunction!

Let me see, today I pulled from my Secret Dakini Oracle Deck the card "Ganesh /Lord of Obstacles"! Ganesh appears to be stuck in the middle of a dew-drop laden spider's web. Or is Ganesh just poised to jump up and down on the trampoline of life?

Obstacles seem to be the pattern today -- everything feels sticky -- and there appears to be no solutions in sight. I went to have my car worked on, they hadn't written down the appointment at the garage. I went to get wheat grass at Whole Foods and they were out. I started to solder in the studio, and my soldering iron tip would not hold the solder and refused to clean up. If I was an astrologer, I would say the heavens appear to be in Mercury Retrograde! And, I was also in Border's today while looking for a specific magazine (no luck there), and saw displayed the book Stuck, Why We Can't (Or Won't) Move On. Really, how funny is that?

The truth is, I'm not helplessly, hopelessly mired in inertia. I CHOOSE to be! If I look at today's events like that, I feel some motion internally...and my inertia is balanced by things I did choose to do. I chose to go for a walk and run. I chose go into my art studio and organize some areas. I chose to drive to the pet store and get cat food ("Meow and thank you" says Angelina). And I have a whole afternoon to choose, or not to choose, to do other things on my list. And if I want to be mired in slothfulness, I CAN CHOOSE THAT! Yippee!

What would it feel like to not feel stuck? To push past the world of appearances -- to feel my mane blowing in the wind?